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  • The fate of All That’s Left zine

    The fate of All That’s Left zine

    As the web master/low-key archivist of mine and METROPOLARITY‘s efforts over the years, I recently realized that there was little mention or even an image of my old All That’s Left zine series here. Although ATL is a featured category of my writing and likewise a persistant feature of my draft stories pile, would you know that from the years of 2012 through 2015 I produced and distributed a series of episodic trans cyborg anime zines and audiotapes?

    My old Tumblr following sure did. The local area freaks and roadside sci-fi fans of Philadelphia did, too. But as the imperial calendar years progress and I insisted on not reprinting the Prototype Packets collection of the three individual zines (because I would soon enough release a longform expanded version that has yet to happen), I realize that this thing that so firmly defined my storytelling existence has fallen out of general awareness.

    The floor of my room strewn with zines, packing envelopes, my laptop with a black screen, and my feet poking from the bottom.
    all that's left zero packet on translucent red cassette tape.

    When METROPOLARITY formed, I put nearly all of my energy into its needs. We put out several zines. We did events. We did performances. I feverishly wrote stories just to read at our recurring Laser Life event. And almost in anticipation of our formation, I had just taken to making print zines and doing ambient soundtrack-backed performances of the stories just to let the people around me know I had thoughts and feelings beyond the banter of identity politics and social events.

    This was all in a brief period during and after the Arab Spring and US Occupy movements, before the owning class’s tech-corporate dominance of this Turnp era behavior-modifying, behavior-tracking social media platforms (which openly work with the state against its citizens/users/sources-of-income). Tumblr in the early 2010s felt then like a fresh image-heavy iteration of the early 00’s LiveJournal community-driven blogging platform, and my Tumblr served as an image and mood board of dystopian cyborg-heavy anime screencaps x technology & geopolitical news x niche design & high fashion x trans & queer race & class longposts and deeply personal self-reflective writings. This era of Tumblr to me felt like a phantom time of consciousness raising, for many of us who dwelt there. Since Tumblr put its bizarre gender-binary specific and anti-sex work censorship practices into place (along with all the other main media platforms deriving a profit from user submitted data), and because I deleted my personal Tumblr in a rare-for-me reckless moment of painful identity crisis a few years earlier, I wonder sometimes who I’ve lost contact with.

    What also happened is that I wrote two short stories in a year, and the next year and year after that they were both in trans speculative fiction anthologies and up for Lambda awards. I wrote a couple of articles for magazines I read, was interviewed a few times by interesting people – all of this you will find announced as news here – I was in the midst of attempting to make myself a legitimized writer in the the owning classes’ logics of worth.

    Something that I can never be too sure of is another person’s understanding of my position in this white supremacist society and thus my access to resources. It is a fact that I am a white mixed person who daily reckons my place within the matrix legacies of Christian colonization efforts, Indigenous genocide (on multiple continents), and chattel slavery of stolen African peoples. And it is also a fact that the generations leading up to me – my forebears – assimilated into whiteness with an unreckoned legacy of imperial Roman>Spanish>British oppression (haunted by grief and void). And for these shadowworld reasons, in the wakingworld I don’t have the credentials that a land-owner’s child might in this white supremacist society, and it enrages me to see my options for attempting to gain them –– I’m talking about upward class mobility. The other day (as of my writing this) Jamie Berrout, of the Trans Women Writers Collective and Booklet Series, shared her thoughts and an essay titled against publishing (a letter to trans women writers against the mfa, literary awards, the myth of meritocracy):

    Publishing at every level reinforces the fiction of meritocracy, which “has become the key means of cultural legitimation for contemporary capitalist culture” (Jo Littler), which “is one of the foundational and erroneous ideals of white supremacy” (Brittany Cooper).

    Jamie Berrout, Against Publishing

    She writes explicitly for trans women of color. So though I am not who she is directly speaking to, I take her messages very seriously because one, they strike a nerve with my own inclinations towards the literary and publishing establishments, and two, they push me to question my stopping points and compromises with engaging those same establishments.

    In this time since I sold the last All That’s Left Prototype Packets zine, I’ve gone and continue to go through many reckonings. Too many things from those stories became reality. Dystopian writing felt urgent at one point, and then it became a fog and now feels like fantasy. I have this draft introduction to the longform ‘book’ that I’ve been working on (for so long it now feels), one part saying that this book is a fantasy, a much-needed personal vent. Like expressing a kink, maybe.

    A close-up of the bottom left corner of the Prototype Packets ATL zine. You can see its stitch binding and how thick it is.

    I wrote the original twelve or so stories of All That’s Left during a period of my life that some people describe in terms of their Saturn return. I was uncovering my own deeply denied and repressed desires, hopes, and despairs, and was in a rage to express them all and be listened to. Years before that, in the midst of leaving a lengthy and formative abusive relationship, I conceived the All That’s Left universe and its characters as a private/secretive exercise in autonomy and escape.

    So although I covet a mythic conventional success in writing, I have little interest in crafting All That’s Left into a sellable book product for an English-speaking mainstream market – maybe I will play that game for another project, to secure resources for me and mines, but for All That’s Left the lengths I would have to go to surpass my position and get access to such a national platform appear unseemly and ill-fated. What I want to express and how I want to tell this story are at odds with the flat-line progression of empire, and I do not believe in the might, right, and romance of empires. Yet I want to be known and I want to communicate with you, dear reader, in profound ways beyond conversation.

    If you have listened to or read my Discipline Welcomes Beauty grimoire, then I expect you’ll understand me when I say that I set down the living word as a witch does – to transmit knowledge through the dimension of time-space. Knowledges born of self-reflection, self-admission, and in relation with the thresholds of the worlds around and through me.

    This is a moment in time. A humid June night of the full moon, on a low hill within a territory once called Lenapehoking now the post-British colony post-industrial American city Philadelphia.

    Amidst workshops and meetups and side projects, I am still writing the tales of All That’s Left, and I hope you will receive something from them as I render them forth.

    My gratitude to my loved ones and neighbors (physical and digital) for their outright/slow/subtle/serendipitous support.

    A wood floor strewn with books and comics, with my ATL zines in the center. Some of the comics are AKIRA, BERSERK, Dragon Ball, Love and Rockets, Battle Angel Alita. Some of the books are The Cyborg's Handbook, the Gunslinger, Her Smoke Rose Up Forever by James Tiptree Jr, Octavia Butler, Robin Hood, the Redwall series, and a Ghost in the Shell novel in English.
  • VENUS SATURN SQUARE smut zine, a physical reality

    VENUS SATURN SQUARE smut zine, a physical reality

    Is it possible to write yourself out of a blocked situation and into your own fantasies?

    VENUS SATURN SQUARE took corporeal form on Palm Sunday 2019. It debuted IRL at the Philly leg of Hot Bits queer xxx film festival on April 26th & 27th at Lightbox Film Center, and later had its own noteworthy release party at Vox Populi gallery on September 21st. It phases in and out of print at the cyborg memoirs distro as of this posting, and can be downloaded in reading or booklet form (15 sheets of paper) as of August 29th, 2020.

    VENUS SATURN SQUARE is a freshly shorn smut zine attempting to straddle a nebulous rift between fandom kink, queer cruising, and BDSM scenes.
    VSS hopes to become a vehicle centering people who find themselves stuck, conflicted, in denial, or self-sabotaging of their own desires.
    VSS features six smut stories by fledgling and experienced writers, for your reading satisfaction. We recommend reading the stories outloud.
    VSS includes a desire practice worksheet to work through your own hang-ups.

    CONTENTS
    • Scorpio for Scorpio by Evie Snax
    • Pits by L. Corn
    • an illustration by Joe Hatton
    • Heavy Prosthetic by Magus Monk
    • ALUMINUM TONGUE [an excerpt from The Body Remembers] by Blake P.
    • The Violet Island by Malachi Lily
    • Synaesthetic Sex by Fatherfucker
    • Desire Practice Worksheet
    • Contributor bio + Contact info

    “This aspect sometimes means unhealthy sensuality. They are hard, and do not know how to express their emotions. They are frightened of showing their love, and this leads to disappointments, break-ups, lack of satisfaction. It is likely that they had problems with their mother, who did not know how to love them or give them self-confidence. They doubt, are suspicious and jealous. They will learn how to be happy in love, to be at ease with themself and to control their jealousy in the second half of their life, thanks to an older person, who gives their self-confidence back to their, so they can then trust others.”

    – AstroCafe birthchart reading
    flier for August 29th 2019 release party of VENUS SATURN SQUARE smut zine at Vox Populi Gallery designed by me

    SEPT 21st /8pm~11pm/ ~ Enter into the dark and listen at the official release soirée for VENUS SATURN SQUARE. This trans-centered erotic zine unfurls from its printed confines for an evening to thrill and confound desires. Come ready to lurk-xuriate in low lighting and heavy listening. Listening masks and phone check will be on offer for a low-distraction experience, along with glow bracelets for anyone who’d rather not talk.

    – from original event announcement
  • CLOG Magazine & Transcendent 3

    CLOG Magazine & Transcendent 3

    I finally got my hands on two late 2018 releases not of my own self-publishing: CLOG magazine’s artificial intelligence themed issue and Lethe Press’s best trans SFF of 2017 collection, Transcendent 3.

    Transcendent 3 follows in Transcendent 2’s footsteps with a nicely sized collection of short sci-fi/fantasy stories by trans authors. The Transcendent series reprints ‘the year’s best’ works, so my story in #3 is HEAT DEATH OF WESTERN HUMAN ARROGANCE, which first appeared in Topside Press’s mammoth Meanwhile, Elsewhere collection.

    CLOG magazine publishes short essays. In their own words,

    CLOG explores, from multiple viewpoints and through a variety of means, a single subject particularly relevant now.

    I would describe it as a designer’s magazine. I first heard about it when a friend posted a photo of their sci-fi issue. Most of the essays were (and in this issue, are) written by accredited and established academics, architects, and business think tank type firms, with some artists thrown in the mix.

    I enjoyed the sci-fi issue, and when an issue on prisons came out, I ended up getting that too (tho admittedly it’s still only half-read). I signed up to their mailing list, and when they announced calls for submissions on artificial intelligence, I told myself that if I didn’t submit I would be annoyed. Artificial intelligence is a topic that has been thoroughly explored in many manga & comic books, songs, Hollywood blockbuster and anime films, novels, satires, and so on. As usual, those powerful money/asset-owning & state actors who fund the development of AI technologies in our current age seem not to heed any of the moral lessons from the abundant, collective body of imagination regarding the topic. So I was worried that this AI issue would come out and be full of horse shit, and I’d be mad that I didn’t attempt to send in my cantankerous, critical little essay. As it turns out, now that I have the finished product in hand, there are a good handful of essays in there that I dig, and not too too many head-up-the-ass platitudes that are only relevant among/affect the upper middle classes.

    For what it’s worth, I’d like to share some of the publishing process with these two, as well as report what I received in exchange for having my words published by outside production houses: For Transcendent 3, the editor solicited my story, had me sign a contract, confirmed that the file I sent was indeed what was going to print, confirmed my print/author name, sent a PDF final of the book before it went to print, and organized compensation at the end. I received 25 USD and 2 contributor copies.

    I hold the TRANSCENDENT 3 book open to my story on page 65.

    CLOG wrote and told me they liked my submission, and to please consider a few edits for an upcoming deadline. I did the edits, and then there were perhaps two more exchanges regarding my piece, and then I didn’t hear anything else. I was not shown my final piece before print, nor was there any announcement to contributors (or at least to me personally) that the issue was coming out. There was no payment for contribution, and I had to purchase my own copy from a local magazine shop.

    My piece in CLOG magazine, titled UNDER EMPIRE. The left-facing page has an oversized quote from my essay: IS EVERYTHING OF HUMAN CREATION ARTIFICIAL?

    So there you have it. Like I said when Transcendent 2 and Meanwhile, Elsewhere came out, I don’t have much interest or energy in me to write for publication with outside entities. I haven’t written a new short story since those anthologies came out, and have been working entirely on smaller side projects and the deepening of my All That’s Left universe. So while I announce these publications for any interested reader here, I humbly request that if you are into my work, to please pay some mind to what’s ongoing on this site right here and definitely subscribe to my newsletter. =)

  • Transitional Times Transitional Body: a new short story collection

    Transitional Times Transitional Body: a new short story collection

    This (25-count zine-now) book follows a few personal (or I suppose artistic) decisions I made after working with outside publishers, wherein I told myself not to forget that writing for myself and my network is what’s most rewarding, both spiritually and financially.

    It contains four stories, two that were published in 2017, and two that debut in this zine.

    For those who have followed my All That’s Left work over the years, I’m pleased to include a 14,600 word story, welcoming you into the lusher landscape where Kay, Rahl, Suli, and Braga dwell, which has always been in my head but never managed to make it into those initial stories. Consider this an opening chapter with more on the way.

    For those who are new to All That’s Left, I released a series of zines under the same name starting in 2012, featuring a cast of struggling cyborg surveyors in a divested and similarly struggling environment. I described the series then as post-binary and non-linear, and while that still holds true, I currently describe it as “a living story, about dispossessed cyborgs and their many borders.”

    71 pages. Body text set in OpenDyslexic font.
    Ships media mail. Available in my webshop.

    Here on this website you can still read the old prototype stories, and the new serial ones as they come out. As of this posting, only the first third of Real Work You Deserve is online, which will soon be rectified to include the entire 14,600 word tale that appears in the print zine

    Me holding open the zine to a page that has a black-and-white image on the left and HEAT DEATH OF WESTERN HUMAN ARROGANCE in big text on the right, with smaller text of the story below.
    Im holding open the zine. A b/w image of a building with a mural on it is on the left. The right has a story titled REAL WORK YOU DESERVE.
  • METROPOLARITY’s BAD USER AGREEMENT

    METROPOLARITY’s BAD USER AGREEMENT

    BAD USER AGREEMENT, the latest episode of METROPOLARITY‘s Journal of Speculative Vision & Critical Liberation Technologies, is finally here. From conception to publication, this release took a few seasons and is the result of us doing the work according to our capacities and desires, rather than some production minded shit. It was also originally intended to be a zine, but then became too thick for anything but perfect binding. It features a body font called OpenDyslexic, which we hope will be easy on people who usually have trouble reading. You can purchase it direct from us at the METROPOLARITY webshop, and likely any event I’ll be reading or tabling at.

    Bad user agreements are those that our societies are built upon. The promises we are taught are true and real and our continued existence in spite of the lies. These are stories of people surviving bad user agreements & ways to game the system.

    Philly based sci-fi & other atemporal fantastic tales from accomplices & kin.

    18 contributors:
    • Karga Fantasma
    • Nora Sinnett
    • Noah Alexander Flora @phenohype_
    • Silvia NoSiri
    • Dani @prettyboycrybaby
    • Seren
    • Tommy Dandelion @tommy.dandelion
    • Joyce Hatton @adifficultjoyce
    • Dyke Sundance
    • Malachi Lily @theholyhawkmoth
    • Dylyn
    • GVN908
    • fishspit
    • M K SmithVail
    • Jurassica Lee McClusky @alternatepools
    • M.Meesh
    • beckett khaim bauer
    • parx333

    and the crew
    r.cutlass, Alex Smith, M Téllez, and Rasheedah Phillips

    124 pages
    6″ x 9″ linen softcover, cream paper
    partial color
    ISBN: 978-0-9981138-1-4
    $16 USD (Price includes shipping inside the US)

    This book will be available at our upcoming events for $16.

    Buy BAD USER AGREEMENT [sold out]

    2024 update:
    Download BAD USER AGREEMENT

  • SEXINESS: Rituals, Revisions, and Reconstructions

    SEXINESS: Rituals, Revisions, and Reconstructions

    Find a 2016 time capsule of yours truly in Discipline Press’s latest release. This book is 100% something I would be going to the South Street Tower Records every day after school to look at, and I’m winking at my 13 year old self as a contributor in it. So many beautiful essays in there, too. Thanks Tamara for including me.

    Sexiness: Rituals, Revisions, and Reconstructions features contributions from a diverse group of fifty artists, educators, sex workers, creatives, and activists exploring the political potential of sexiness. The work presented here references and complicates long-standing cultural associations with sexiness, including power, bodies, gender, and desire. At the same time, it introduces new and thought-provoking connections to sexiness, such as listening, healing, water, and being alone. Sexiness reads like a series of intimate conversations with bold, brave, and innovative individuals. Using multiple forms of print-based media, such as text and images, writing and handwriting, and poetry and portraits, Sexiness transforms sexiness from a monolithic and oppressive force into a potent site of possibility.

    Contributors:

    MARCELLINE MANDENG,  PERMAID, BUCK ANGEL, ALLIE O, DOREEN GARNER,  LOCAL HONEY, WILLIAM E. WELSH, SARGE, AMY LOUSIA WILDE, XANDRA IBARRA/LA CHICA BOOM, AUDRA WIST, DOMONIQUE ECHEVERRIA, LEAFAR SEYER, MAITRESSE MADELINE MARLOWE,  MIYAKO BELLIZZI, SARA TAYLOR, SYNMIA ROSINE, AIDA MANDULEY, CAROLYN LAZARD, SALLY ROSE, GABBAH BAYA, SONYA SOMBREUIL, TINA HORN, NEON BURGUNDY, EMILY MCMASTER, AMERICAN CASSIDY, HEIN KOH, STEPHANIE TAMEZ, EMMA KOHLMANN, MISS IAN, SATIN-DOLL, CALEY FEENEY, ANGEL ROSE, NLQ/NIK LOPEZ DE QUINTANA,  LUCY, EJ HILL, M. TELLEZ, GABRIELA RUIZ/LEATHER PAPI,  NO BRA, PATRICK CALIFIA, SEAN BLACK, CASSANDRA J. PERRY, ERYKAH OHMS, JUSTIN SHOCK, TROLL HOLE, MARC BELLENGER, KIA LABEIJA, DR. ZELAIKA HEPWORTH,  GLORIA LUCAS

    8×10” with debased linen hardcover. 185 pgs. full color printing, printed by Snel in Belgium. Published in collaboration with Sang Bleu.

    About the Editor:

    TAMARA SANTIBAÑEZ is a multimedia artist and activist living and working in Brooklyn. Her work is rooted in subcultural semiotics, exploring the meanings we assign to materials, accessories and objects.Santibañez is the founding editor of New York-based independent publishing imprint Discipline Press.

  • Discipline Welcomes Beauty ~ A Cleaning & Organizing Grimoire

    Discipline Welcomes Beauty ~ A Cleaning & Organizing Grimoire

    This feels appropriate for spring & the start of the zodiac year. A long-awaited grimoire regarding cleaning and organizing, something I seem to be known for/something I do for myself and also feel conflicted about.

    I used to be a very messy child. You couldn’t see the floor in my room, and I would dash across the crap pile, and locate things by triangulating their last known whereabouts by crap quadrant. One day – I must’ve been seven or eight – I cleaned up my room. I don’t know why I cleaned it that day out of the blue. I had just decided, is my only recollection. It surprised my mom, as did the reason. I’ve kept my personal space organized ever since.I wonder now if maybe I hadn’t realized the burden it was to my mom who would have to spend the whole day cleaning her child’s room every few weeks.

    Here’s some of the section titles:

    • The bitch’s retreat
    • Not purity. Not order.
    • Control.
    • Take good care of your tools and they’ll take care of you.
    • Keeping altars.
    • Beauty as a sensation.
    • Letting things go.
    • Just remember that you’ll have to live with it.

    and others.

    As of this post it’s available for purchase from my webshop.
    As of 12 July 2018, you can listen to the zine in its entirety here.

    the zine on a desk, open to a back cover YOU HAVE TO MAKE A MESS BEFORE YOU MAKE MEANING, surrounded by tarot cards
  • Meanwhile, Elsewhere & Transcendent 2

    Meanwhile, Elsewhere & Transcendent 2

    In 2017 I had two stories published in these two trans SFF anthologies. These were my first experiences outside of self-publishing, having stories published under contract in exchange for a dollar amount.

    Topside Press’s anthology got HEAT DEATH OF WESTERN HUMAN ARROGANCE and Lethe Press’s anthology got ABOUT A WOMAN AND A KID. Neither story could see the light of day until they were officially published in their respective anthologies, although if anyone came to a reading of mine during the year they likely saw me perform my tale about Inri and Loma.

    GUTS magazine said:

    “M Téllez’s “Heat Death of Western [Human] Arrogance” forced me to rethink my relation to individual autonomy. Narrated by Inri, a “third generation Slow Stepper,™” the story makes human-normal seem strange, in a way that allows readers to encounter humanness in a different way.”

    Katherine Cross for BITCH magazine said:

    M. Téllez’s story “Heat Death of Western Human Arrogance,” about a reptilian alien from Mars and their human girlfriend, is a masterpiece. It’s a challenging parable about how the good intentions of white liberals can dehumanize or even destroy those they seek to ‘save.’ As Inri, the story’s main character says, “there is nothing on Mars that is as aggressive,” as the “good intent” of white liberals.

    Since the release of both books, they’ve seen a fair amount of positive press, Lambda nominations, and even a Stonewall book award. I must admit, I knew little firsthand about the machinations of literary prestige before getting myself into things. And while I did figure how to lay out and self-publish METROPOLARITY’s gorgeous Style of Attack Report – and our book was also nominated for a Lambda award lol – it’s just funny to me how underwhelming and vaguely unseemly the whole experience has been.

    I’m not sure what I expected and I guess I was trying to see what would happen. Anyone who fucks with me knows I have an open disdain for institutions that rely on the importance of their own legitimacy to gatekeep. After getting waitlisted one year and denied the next from Clarion (SFF writer’s seminar program), after us in METROPOLARITY crew continued to experience so many bizarre instances of ‘our institution is so inspired by yet not willing to invite or pay you’ resistance & non-support to the work we were putting out, after hearing straight from a veteran sci-fi writer’s mouth that his idea of diversity was having white-passing writers from different first world countries and not the marginalized in his own… I was just like, well shit I got these editors directly inquiring for my work – let’s see what this is like.

    Again, I’m not sure what I expected. Prestige does not pay the bills. Unless people who can write me checks like that prestige, you know? (And further still, what do I and those I claim to support stand to lose by accepting their money?) For the weeks and months of my time-energy involved with these two short stories, I was shocked to see how little a story paid in comparison to a university speaking gig, and further yet compared to selling my own zines direct to fans. This is the most I think I’ve said ‘publicly’ about ‘getting published’ and out of respect to the people who spent their time-energy supporting me, it’s still very restrained.

    Aside from a follow-up reprint of HEAT DEATH in the upcoming Transcendent 3, I am taking a break from working with outside publishers. I’m taking a break from anything that’s not exactly what I want to be putting out.

  • DESIRE HOPE DESPAIR Speculative Storytelling Streamcast

    DESIRE HOPE DESPAIR Speculative Storytelling Streamcast

    Please enjoy this infrequent sci-fi/speculative storytelling & discussion series, with yours truly as the host and special guest neighbors from time 2 time. Episodes oscillate between the performance of original stories and beloved slept-on tales, with atmospheric audio accompaniment to elevate your listening experience. Intimate discussions related to the story material are a feature as well in this no-budget pet project of mine. =)

    Audio verbal spoken storytelling – whatever you want to call it – hearing a story can affect you in ways that the written word cannot. Having someone read to you is special. The audiobooks I got from the library as a child left deep impressions on me. Good stories are not limited to dead-on-the-page literature or the goddamn Queen’s English. Some people don’t read anyway because they don’t like to, have trouble, or can’t seem to get into it no matter how they try. So, as a writer and lover of stories, this series is for everyone who feels me on that.

    ep 00: Monk reads & discusses James Tiptree Jr’s The Screwfly Solution. Ambient musical accompaniment by Pauline Darkstar.

    ep 01: Ras Mashramani reads her story GRL.SUICIDE.HOLIDAY from METROPOLARITY‘s debut book, Style of Attack Report. Audio accompaniment done live by Althea of SWARM & Bare Teeth collectives.

    ep 02: Monk reads & discusses Digital Pistil by Lois H. Gresh, from The Cyborg Handbook (1995). Ambient musical accompaniment by Pauline Darkstar.

    ep 03: Monk reads Discipline Welcomes Beauty: A Cleaning & Organizing Grimoire in its entirety. Ambient musical accompaniment by Pauline Darkstar.

    ep 04: Monk reads HEAT DEATH OF WESTERN HUMAN ARROGANCE in its entirety. As usual, audio treatment and musical accompaniment/audio mixing by Pauline Darkstar.


    PHOTO CREDIT: A pic I snapped of the homie Alex Smith.

  • The Romance of the Colony

    The Romance of the Colony

    I originally wrote this narrative for Mask Magazine [defunct 2021] about the persistent imperialist romance myth of “the colony” in sci-fi. It’s a story about the dreams of The Colony’s extension into outerspace/surveillance state as seen thru lens of Hollywood blockbusters and anime.

    Better Living Through Chemistry

    It’s spring, 2011. Your friend is at the gentrified anarchist coffee shop highlighting the shit out of a textbook page already crammed with notes in the margins. They look up, anticipating your approach. “What are you reading?” They show you the cover: The Cyborg Handbook from ‘95. Your friend passes it over, it’s opened to an article called “Cyborgs and Space.” It’s a reprint from a 1960-edition of the journal Astronautics and it’s famous for coining the word “cyborg.” 1960 is two years fresh from NASA’s 1958 Space-Race era foundation, your friend says. The article calls for the development of astronauts whose bodies are chemically and bio-mechanically optimized for space travel so that they don’t need sophisticated external equipment. Like a fish that adapts to leave the ocean and breath on land, your friend says. “And all these military and government people fucking loved it until the dudes’ follow-up paper was like, yo, how are these cyborgs gonna be like mentally stable in space though?” The social-sexual needs of a person isolated in outer space seems like a legit concern to you – you’re like, I feel mad isolated right now from my own social-sexual needs – and right there in the handbook’s reprint of the 1970 follow-up article on just that, it says the Astronautics journal refused to publish the jawn, even though they had asked the authors for a new piece in the first place. You suck your tongue loud and look at your friend. They make a side-eyeing face back that completes your shared meme expressing psychic exhaustion with white supremacy. You go order your coffee.

    Working Man’s Revolt Fantasy

    It is the early 1990s. A kid’s stepdad comes home from the overnight shift one morning with a shrimp platter and a brand new Schwarzenegger VHS trilogy boxset. They’re going to have a great Saturday afternoon in the apartment. Snap the plastic. Handle the cardboard. One movie is called Red Heat (1988), about a Moscow detective and a Chicago cop joining forces. Another movie is called The Running Man (1987), about a live reality deathgame show that threatens to kill its wrongfully imprisoned working class heroes, one of which is a cop who refused to murder people. The third movie is called Total Recall (1990). The kid’s stepdad has a thing for outer space and so does the kid. They’re gonna start with this one. The movie is about a mutant underclass that lives in dust-crusted holdouts on Mars, dependent on breathable air rations that are entirely controlled by a single corporation, which also suppresses the ancient, indigenous technology that can provide planet-wide free-flowing air. It ends with the resistance destroying the corporation, the death of the CEO, and the planet’s pre-colonization technology fired back up. All power to the people.

    “I’m not into politics. I’m into survival.”

    This is what a rogue cop says when the two guys he broke out of jail with invite him to join their militant resistance group. Before they part ways the rogue cop tells the resistance dudes to “stop trying to teach the Constitution to the street punks” and to “stay out of the national database.” This is The Running Man from thirty years ago:

    Plot: “In 2017, after a worldwide economic collapse, American society has become a totalitarian police state, censoring all cultural activity. The US government pacifies the populace by broadcasting game shows where convicted criminals fight for their lives, including the gladiator-style The Running Man, hosted by the ruthless Damon Killian (Richard Dawson), where “runners” attempt to evade “stalkers”, armed mercenaries, around a large arena, and near-certain death for a chance to be pardoned by the state.”

    Just Leave

    It’s late November, 2016. Your logged-in Google search on Elon Musk returns post-election news that the billionaire with the private company plotting to colonize Mars just won a $112 million NASA contract to launch NASA’s Surface Water and Ocean Topography mission (SWOT). It’s something that will orbit the planet and be able to survey all of the surface water on Earth. Seems nifty. A phrase in the official release catches your eye: aid in freshwater management around the world. Now how do you get that job – freshwater manager? Your mind recalls that scene in the movie Tank Girl from ’95 where all the water is owned by Water & Power Corporation and they make weapons that produce drinkable water by extracting it from a person’s body, killing them in the process. Your mind brought you this scene last summer, too, when you were visiting LA (a desert) for the first time and a documentary came on called Killing the Colorado. There was a scene featuring three New York City hedge fund managers with a new company, Water Asset Management, “devoted to buying and selling just about anything having to do with water.” WAM, huh. Google provides you with another article on Musk about how the Political Action Committee, led by potential White House Press Secretary under Turnp, Laura Ingraham, recently launched a smear website targeting Musk and his companies. Big money contract wars? It’s like that episode of Ghost in the Shell: ARISE (2013) where the news is livecasting the scene from a foreign water company’s contract signing with a Japanese cybernetic prosthetics manufacturer. There’s a stage. There’s balloons. One CEO waxes poetic while they both hold up champagne glasses of purified drinking water. “We’ve followed the principle of free trade to maintain fair prices that will spur postwar economic recovery,” one says. Outside a Give back our water! chant rises from a mass of heavily surveilled protesters. They brandish signs demanding, “Give water to the war orphans!!” while police helicopters blanket the sky. Water is life rings in your head alongside images of the toxic yellow tap water in Flint. There’s a sickening relationship between this and the purification technologies that will be developed for Martian water reserves.

    The Simulation / Assimilation

    Commander Helena Braddock (Pam Grier): “Rookie, use your breathers. We’re not gonna have air like Earth for ten more years.”

    Bashira Kincaid (Clea DuVall): “God, I hate this thing.”

    Lieutenant Melanie Ballard (Natasha Henstridge): “You’ll get used to it. Two years ago we were still wearing full face breathers. Takes about a month to get over the headaches out here. […] You’re always cold. You can’t get a decent shower. And they don’t tell you that a one year contract here equals two years Earth time. Gotta read the fine print.”

    That’s how on-the-job banter goes between cops stationed on Mars in the late 22nd century. In John Carpenter’s horror slash sci-fi Western, Ghosts of Mars (2001), ancient Martian spirits possess colonies of human miners, causing people to go berserk and kill each other. Tough job! If big budget sci-fi movies are so predictive of the future, why do they feature cops or soldiers as the heroes so frequently? Totally biased. Unfortunate. Scam!

    9 November 2016, 23:00 EST

    Everyone is very stressed out. Your housemate shuffles into your room and asks if you want to watch Black Power Mixtape on Netflix. Clues. Lessons. Time to get focused fast. Twenty-nine minutes in you register the stock footage of a space rocket blasting off as significant. You pause the movie, then drag the bar left on its timeline overlay. The film’s narrative unfolds anew: 1968 arrives. Nixon becomes president. Eldridge Cleaver, the Black Panther Party’s Ministry of Information, says before a cluster of microphones:

    “All three of these pigs that we have a choice from, Oink Nixon, Oink Humphrey, and Oink Wallace, they’re not for us. They do not represent us. They do not represent the best interests of this country. They definitely don’t represent the best thinking in this country. In fact, they represent the very worst tradition which was ever to crawl from beneath the rocks in this… whew… this bankrupt country.”

    At those words, Cleaver’s face and the microphones fade into slow motion footage of a NASA rocket launching. 1968 becomes 1969. You pause the movie again. The US put the first man on the moon in 1969. You tell your housemate that this overlay of footage has you fucked up, cause not till this very moment did you ever consider that your childhood love of science and space exploration was perhaps a distraction. The film is saying, hey, look now, this is what the President and his business interests and his government were funding while they murdered Black people for defending their dignity – mankind’s noble objective to explore space, “the final frontier” crafted as propaganda by a white supremacist empire warring for Space Race glory.

    And you remember the date with your boo to the midnight IMAX showing of Interstellar (2014), where you sat there being disgusted by the protagonist’s most assured rationale that “We’re not meant to save the world. We’re meant to leave it.”

    The Romance of the Colony

    “One thing people don’t realize is that we have been at Mars – humans have been at Mars for over 50 years now. Which is a tremendous track record, and we’re learning a ton about the planet that will enable us to get humans there safely. You know, frontiers – opening ‘em are hard. There is no joke about that, but you know what, that is what frontiers are about and it changes with time. This summer I was taking my two little daughters down to Jamestown in Virginia, and you know what, between 1607 and 1623 approximately 20,000 people went to Jamestown. Does anyone know how many of ‘em were alive at the end of 1623? I’ll tell ya. It’s 2,000. So they had a 90% mortality rate in Virginia. And there were similar challenges going all the way out to the West. People really took a challenge. We don’t do that at NASA, we try to mitigate those risks – but the point I’m trying to make is that frontiers are hard. And you have to kind of put the pieces together to make it happen and that’s what we’re learning in the Mars exploration program, and we’ll learn all across the board. […] You know, we are on the verge of something incredibly cool. You know, when they did Jamestown, they actually became a multi-continent species. With Mars, we’re actually becoming a multi-planetary species, and that is something that a thousand years from now or maybe even ten thousand years from now, they will go wow, they did it. And it’s not easy. The path is not clear. But we can do it. And frankly, you guys have a big part to play in it.”

    In the current hottest year on record, a grown up low-income and institutionally ill-prepared but very smart child decides to stop watching the NASA YouTube. NASA Social Goes Behind the Scenes of our Journey to Mars panel. A public relations video, featuring Rick Davis, Assistant Director for Science and Exploration in NASA’s Science Mission Directorate. He looks like all the astronauts in the movies – straight, masculine, white, and American – as he connects the current state of the Mars journey to the tradition of “people” (meaning European settlers) facing “similar challenges going all the way out to the West” (meaning the task of murdering and displacing the original inhabitants of these now blood-soaked stolen lands). The grown up child wonders if an ancient Mayan or Egyptian space colony mindset would have differed at all from this one.

    “If Humans Don’t Want Me, Why Did They Make Me?”

    It’s like 1998 and somehow you got yourself invited over to the oldhead punk rocker who works at Zipperhead’s house cause you both like anime and they’re reeling from a breakup. The oldhead is like, “Yeah but have you ever seen the OVA for Armitage? It’s not the same as the movie version on Sci-fi Channel. They cut a whole part out of it that’s fucking crucial.” Punk rocker puts the tape in the VCR and you both settle in. Armitage the Third. A classic from a slept-on wave of 90s and 00s cyberpunk anime, featuring Hollywood stars Elizabeth Berkley and Kiefer Sutherland on the English dub. It’s 2046 and overpopulation on Earth has led to colonization of Mars, reliant on waves of increasingly sophisticated androids to assist in the frontier efforts of men. Someone could write a paper about how these Martian androids are highly sexualized, thin, light-skinned “female” types, filling the background of every scene as they perform service, support, and sex work for presumably human clients. And nobody gives a fuck about their well-being, a brutal fact the cop Armitage has to reckon with upon the revelation that she too is an android. Years later in a college classroom you’ll watch Soylent Green (1973), set in a polluted, overpopulated Earth, 2022, featuring another cop that must reckon with an unbearable revelation. There’s a scene where bulldozers shovel masses of New Yorkers, rioting over food shortages, into the backs of garbage trucks. You’re like, damn 2022 is one year after Turnp’s upcoming term, and how serious do you take the forewarnings of another sci-fi film produced and distributed through for-profit networks?

    This Technology Does Not Benefit Nor Concern You / You Must Forge Your Own

    On a late winter’s night you, a cyborg, write parts of an incantation.

    there are cycles to break
    the technologies that bind us rely on the notion that humans are special and different from all other things in the universe
    what is considered to be alive
    and who is
    worthy of living?
    what’s missing?
    what’s missing…

    You are reassessing your social-sexual needs, your mental health. You deleted your eight-year-old Tumblr because you didn’t like the frequency that it had so well trained you to perform for your followers (their constituents). Facebook locked down your account for its “illegal” name and you said fuck it when they demanded a state-issued ID to get back on. The already chronically inflamed tendons in your arms and hands, which make it so that you can’t hold a pen firm enough to legibly write sometimes, got worse from the constant activity. You turned off Instagram and Twitter notifications and stopped fucking with your Snapchat as much cause you started to ask yourself, what are these relationships really when they’re not mediated by these for-profit networks? You orient yourself with memories of the dial-up days of 1990s internet and what it was like to live adventurously without the trappings of a pre-signified body. You have spent all these years holding on to a mounting dread while the internet’s transformed into a convenient, everywhere, totally identified companion reality that optimizes your behavior for social control. Maybe it was never for your own benefit. You write these words because you wonder what it’s like to be a pre-pubescent person in this era of coercive data-for-service internet. You wonder when it will become criminalized to not maintain an active social media presence. And what will you do then?

  • Style of Attack Report

    Style of Attack Report

    A self-published jawn by my unrelenting coven, METROPOLARITY, produced in our fourth year.

    METROPOLARITY is a DIY sci-fi collective based, bred, and tested in the colliding future-present of Philadelphia. This Style of Attack Report contains select work from Metropolarity’s four founding members, who contribute theory, practice, and experience of home grown speculative visioning for both historical documentation as well as personal and collective survival. The collection serves as a model and a record of how Black, brown, queer, low-resource, working, ill and in-recovery people can project themselves into the future, conjuring resources, technology, and magic that aid us in the present.

    Also this sci-fi is FIRE cuz the crew don’t play.

    Get a copy direct from the source here.

  • SHEDDING zine

    SHEDDING zine

    “WE CRAFTED MEANING OUT OF THINGS WHICH DO NOT REPRESENT US”

    “MIXED BLOODS Y HALF BREEDS”

    “TO SAY YOU ARE WHITE IS TO SAY YOU ARE ABSENT OF ANYTHING & ENTITLED BY HISTORY
    BUT WHAT DO YOU CONTAIN?
    WHOSE LEGACIES WERE YOU BORN FROM?”

    I think I made about 50 of these in total. A zine of hand-written time capsules of past and ongoing versions of myself, compiled from my notebooks in the year 2016. Early craftings of spells, in other words, and perhaps my first non-fiction release. SHEDDING heralded the release of a whole slew of material slogan goods under my DHD project.

    If you’d like to have the PDF, feel free to contact me via the About page.