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  • Heavy Prosthetic

    Heavy Prosthetic

    Note: This is a smut story. And “hir” is prounced like “here”

    There was a strange wind-blown circuit. We were driving big machines and stopped into a weird, long motel. More like a town center, styled after some ole fantasy border town community BUT ALL THE SETTLERS WERE GONE. I met a heavy-prosthetic girl, a companion rider like me. We started talking because we were near each other. He was odd and sexual and not that pretty LIKE EVERYONE WANTS HP GIRLS TO BE. HE HAD DARK LIP HAIRS AND CROOKED TEETH LIKE ME. We were sitting on the patio outside my rig driver’s MOTEL room talking WITH THE DOOR OPEN. IT WAS SO METAL HOT OUT. My rig driver was busy with an immersion screen or a book or some thing the motel’s always have. He put hir hand on the inside of my thigh when they weren’t looking, and then touched the other one, squeezing it. I watched hir hands. I knew where they might go, and was worried, because even though it was light, I had just started my flush. He pushed hir palm against my pussy then, suddenly, like he caught my thinking. Even with the pad, I could feel the pressure, and it felt good. I pushed back against it. He rubbed a little harder. HE MUST’VE SMELLED THE HEAT ON ME.

    Then he pulled the hem of my shorts’ leg back and slipped hir fingers under. He found my pussy and pushed two fingers all the way in, forceful, the way I like but never get BECAUSE I NEED MAINTENANCE I CAN NEVER GET EITHER. I looked over at my friend the rig driver. They weren’t paying attention and the HP girl knew it. I barely knew the girl. He HAD HIR FINGERS IN me and I couldn’t wait for him to fuck me MORE. He didn’t pull hir fingers back in and out, just pushed them in and pushed them in deeper, moving them around inside me. I LET MY MOUTH HANG OPEN AND TRIED TO STAY QUIET.

    My friend left the room, oblivious, or maybe knowing but acting oblivious, OR MAYBE ON LIQUID. The HP girl moved close and grabbed my head with the back of hir hand. I THOUGHT ABOUT THE FLUSH BLOOD THEN DIDN’T CARE. I moved closer. He licked my lips, wet and slow, and then I felt hir tongue slide into my mouth. Big, and slow and flat, so I could feel all of how he moved, and he was fingering me still. I could feel the warm sting of my nipples getting hard. I didn’t remember what hir body looked like. I think he had a rectangle shape. I wanted hir to fuck me.

    He was smirking, licking my mouth like he might lick my pussy, pushing hir flat tongue against my lips until it flopped into my mouth, moving hir fingers around inside me deep up to hir top knuckle. I felt like he was doing this because he knew I needed to be fucked, we had all been traveling on the road for a long time WITH OUR RIG DRIVER FRIENDS. Then I heard my friend coming back. I jumped up to try and keep them from coming in by changing the busy signal on the door, but they ignored it. We yelled at them. They had no idea. They were on liquid. I said, let’s get our own room, and the HP girl agreed, picking up hir things immediately. But then I remembered how much it might cost and that I didn’t have any money, and he left without me.

    Later I got a couple messages from hir demanding to know why I wasn’t with hir, and to get there. I felt pressured, like I was supposed to be hirs when I didn’t want to be—MY FRIEND MIGHT GET MAD. But all I could feel was my SWOLLEN CUNT and hir fingers in it, JUICING, filling me up. I decided to look for hir. It took me a long time. I couldn’t figure out how to use my mobile device for some reason, and figure out where he was. When I got to the room he was in and opened the door, he was sitting at a cheap little table with the bed behind hir, legs crossed like working men in movies. I FORGOT HE HAD BREASTS. There was someone else in the room with hir.

    I didn’t move for a moment. Then I walked in and put my bag down on the floor. I still didn’t know hir name. The stranger looked at me. I remembered she was hir driver, like my friend was. SHE WAS PRETTY LIKE EVERYONE WANTS HP GIRLS TO BE. She didn’t seem to care that I was there, or how obvious everything was. Her pants were tight. MY PUSSY WAS SWOLLEN. I wanted her to fuck me too. The HP girl stood up then and walked over to me. I never took my pad off from before, but I didn’t care. I WAS TOO HOT TO CARE. [PUSSY TOO SWOLLEN TO CARE]. He grabbed the top of my shorts and undid them. He slipped hir fingers between my underwear and my skin and pulled everything down at once LIKE YANKING OFF A BELT/HITTING A DOG. I wanted to be naked all the way, ACCESSIBLE, RANK. Hir friend looked up at me then. I saw her dick, pushing hard against her pants. The HP girl looked over at her. She undid her pants, pulling her dick out. It was SOFT and thick, I LIKED THE SHAPE BETTER THAN than my friend’s. I was excited to fuck a new dick. Then I realized I might not be allowed to.

    The HP girl stepped closer and put hir hand on my ass, grabbing it and pulling me hard against hir. He dug hir fingernails in as he did this, and I looked at hir, wanting more. He dragged hir hand up my back, to my shirt, pulling it off over my head. I was standing in my SUPPORT HARNESS. My nipples were painfully HARD. I wanted to look over at hir friend’s dick again, but he knew, and hit me on the cheek. He grabbed me by the nipple before I could be upset and I shuddered from it being so sudden. I felt hir friend come up behind me. She undid my HARNESS, sliding her hands over my shoulders to get the straps off. Her dick brushed against my ass and I pressed back against it without thinking. The girl took both my nipples between hir fingers and tugged them hard, every which way, so I could feel the weight of my CHEST. IT felt warm and heavy. I kept thinking the girl was ugly, but not. HEAVY-PROSTHETIC GIRLS TEND TO HAVE A LOOK. Hir look made me gape.

    Hir rig driver pressed against me from behind again. Her dick almost slipped between my thighs. I wiggled my ass against her, hoping it would FIND A WAY in. The girl stepped back and took hir JUMPSUIT off. He had a RIG DRIVER’S physique, like I thought, with UNTAPED breasts. Then he sat on the MUSTY bed and told me to come to hir. He lay back with hir legs apart and told me to get on top of hir, so I did. He pulled me down. Our tits touched and we started kissing. Hir friend came behind and cupped my pussy, HOLDING IT LIKE SHE WAS GUESSING THE WEIGHT, raising my ass in the air, MY WEIGHT UNSTABLE ON THE BED. I was shuddering. The HP girl was licking my neck in that nasty floppy way from before. I struggled trying to get hir tongue in my mouth, while hir friend’s hand was still weighing up my pussy, and then he met my mouth and we were kissing again like we wanted to fuck, slow and drooling. Hir friend stepped back. I felt her fingers press against my clit’s metal rod, and I shook from the feeling. I looked between. MY FLUSH BLOOD WAS ALL OVER HIR LEGS ALREADY. Then hir friend came from behind again, crouching. She pushed and held me down onto the girl so SHE COULD BEAR her dick AGAINST US at the same time. I couldn’t stop shaking. THIS WAS QUALITY, I COULD TELL. I could feel the girl’s spit all over my lips and chin. He rubbed it down between us WITH MY BLOOD, onto our CHESTS, ON MY NECK. Hir friend kept tracing the tip of her PRETTY DICK along our holes. I reached down to feel hir’s. It was bald, and LUBE-wet LIKE THOSE PRIVATE CITY DOME BABIES YOU HEAR ABOUT. Suddenly I felt hir friend’s dick EDGE into me. She went all the way in, and I CACKLED because it felt so good.

    She gripped me by the SHOULDER and my waist and fucked my pussy hard. I couldn’t put my weight on the bed anymore. She was holding me up completely. THE JEWELRY ON HER FINGERS AND WRISTS AND PAINTED NAILS TURNED ME ON. I could feel my tits bouncing against the HP girl’s; I COULDN’T LOOK AT ANYTHING. He was pulling on my nipples, slapping my metal clit with hir fingers while hir friend’s heavy dick moved in and in deeper. I listened to her slapping against me loudly, and my own voice. She fucked hard, and ON PACE, but then slowed down to pull out almost to the tip, and then shove it back in. I FELT LIKE I WAS EATING. Her dick went so deep it hurt, but I wanted it to hurt and pushed hard against her for it, groaning open and more open. I looked at the girl and saw he was watching MY FACE. Every time her dick went all the way in, I KEENED AND CACKLED, and he SAT UP to lick my mouth when I did. He fucked my open mouth with hir tongue. Everything was wet. THE HEAT. I told them I wanted it fast again, but she gave me another hard pump and pulled me ON TO MY FEET away from the girl.

    The HP girl got up and then hir and the rig driver both pushed me down against the bed, and now he straddled me so we had switched positions. Hir friend held hir the same way she held me, and I pulled hir hard against me, so it would be difficult for hir. HE WAS STREAKED WITH MY DRYING FLUSH BLOOD. EVERYTHING SMELLED OVERWHELMING. I bit hir lip, then lapped my tongue against hir mouth, over hir face. He was gasping from being fucked like he was, and I let hir go so I could slap hir breasts AND HIR BIG CLIT DANGLING HARD. The whole bed was shaking. I thought anyone outside could hear us all fucking.

    BUT EVERYBODY KNOWS it’s only rig drivers and their girls who make stops at circuit motels.

    The heavy-prosthetic girl and hir driver left as the sun was going down. I stank. I found my rig driver leaning against our rig in the twilight. The new moon was out, close to setting. I posted up next to them, unsure. They looked me over clear and mean and it turned me on.

    “You have a good time?” they asked, stepping on my foot. “How’s your prosthetic feel?”

    “Like the first day I got it,” I smiled.

    Nearby, a snake gorged itself on a salamander.


          

    This was once a dream, wrought further to its current shape for appearance in the spring 2019 debut issue of Venus Saturn Square smut zine.

    UPDATE 29 AUG 2020: You can now download the premier volume of this zine in reading or booklet form (15 sheets of paper).

  • Hotbloods

    Hotbloods

    Channel 7-70 had Hotblood Saturdays every weekend of the month. They billed it as a double feature of independent erotic films, but Channel 7-70 (not actually a television channel but a full-service “anytime” subscription media-stream) was owned by Amaripa Group, and “erotic” was their re-purposed word for “explicitly pornographic.” It was a Channel from the domes. All Channels were from the domes. All Channels sucked. And ordinarily, for the domes, staying in on a Saturday night to watch porno would be considered a statement of social handicap (especially when you could just go to a sex party instead, duh). But for hired cyborgs assigned to desolate frontier duty, it was an all right way to spend an evening.

    Hearing this, a real person back home might ask: “You seriously prefer porn made for fucked up assholes over digging with real people?” But fools that talked like that didn’t know shit about being a Surveyor. Spending months at a time with a squad only three to five deep got old after a while. Sometimes jerking off by yourself was preferable to trying it with your crew. The time alone, getting back in your body, it was good stuff. Sometimes.

    This Hotblood Saturday was really shaping up, though. Someone at the broadcast hub had gotten their hands on a piece of quality smut, a mega-hi-res tactile sync full immersion production. After last Saturday’s low-res single-layer stream of amateur anal, it almost seemed like an apology, while at the same time doing little to alleviate the latest rumors that even the mega-corporations were running out of funds and cutting back, being conservative with their production budgets and bandwidth alike. Must scare the dome yups real bad.

    Alone in her tent, Kay was about to make the most of this week’s absurd blessing. Not that last week’s poolside ass-fucking hadn’t been appreciated, but it was so offensively predictable, and the hairless manicured bodies looked ridiculous. Ego stroking jerk-off material made by underage yups, always being misled about what their bodies looked like and eating it up anyway. This stuff on now, though, this high-production gem, was topnotch. The syncing was multi-layer on all the bodies involved, and you could switch between just the neural stimulation, the emotional response, or a custom combination. A-plus shit. Professional performers, for sure. These people knew how to make it ache. Knew how to tease. Maybe it was erotica, but then how did this good kink get approved for broadcast? Better not to question things.

    Their camp was just four corporate-issue base tents with optical camouflage, sitting like old stones in the dense silence of a toxic field and its burnt-out industrial slaughterhouse. No one could hear the moaning and whimpering, the heavy spanking, the urgent, sloppy sounds of lips sucking and organs being stroked. Streaming porn direct to a cyber-brain didn’t make a sound. For all Kay knew, her whole posse could be in the middle of a virtual orgy on the sync stream, getting fucked by the same layer that she was about to connect to. Having a corporate-issue prosthetic body that could handle a rich sync stream like that was definitely a perk, even if it distanced you from all the low-tek bodies back home.

    In their four-person unit Kay was captain, and her posse knew not to go looking for her when she was sealed in her tent. When they first started out together, she had occasionally asked one of them in for some low-tek physical contact, but that didn’t happen these days. Not since the first few lovers’ quarrels, when she decided the interaction between physical bodies created too many complicated relationship dynamics for their isolated pack. Given their inability to access recreational drugs, the option to wi-fuck her crew in virtual fantasy scenarios was most appealing, and seemed pretty similar to sitting around and getting high with friends back home. Positive stimulation. Stress relief. At least it seemed that way to her.

    Recently, though, they’d gone through some real bad shit that left everyone tender and wishing for the past in a bad way. Their day-to-day experiences were becoming oppressively dismal, and they still had a long tenure to fulfill on the front. Depression was setting in. Rahl, whom she was usually so close to, had become distant and unreceptive to any attempts at syncing for mutual “stress relief.” Meanwhile, she and Braga had been connecting on the regular in these lush virtual play scenarios, maintained by the vigorous combination of their imaginations; Braga liked to be topped and she liked his submission. They never talked about it in the flesh.

    Suli, the third of her subordinates, was something else. That kid. . . It was a miracle that nobody had killed him by now. He was outrageously entitled, out of touch with reality, and the only one of the four of them that became a Surveyor for the hell of it. He was from the domes. He was stubborn and refused to acknowledge the fact that the domes themselves were an abominable last stand of the capitalist elite, always insisting that it was simply one of the safest places a person could live in this day and age. He was an agent of destruction, who only fucked manicured bodies and was bad at hiding his intense fear of acknowledging his privilege. But that was only after you got to know him. On the surface, he was charming and romantic, and highly skilled.

    Kay, yet to hop onto the full stream, was still hanging around watching a muscly little cub writhe around. For all she knew, Suli was actually synced with that oiled-up cub, and the prospect of punishing him in such a removed way was oddly compelling. But no, after listening to Braga’s recount of how their patrol in Nalji went, it sounded like Suli didn’t even know about the streams, which she couldn’t quite make sense of. The streams were produced by Channels in the domes. Suli was from the domes. Suli didn’t know about the streams? Which meant that he didn’t care about them, or that he spent his alone time getting his rocks off some other way. What the hell did he get a Surveyor body for exactly, if not to utilize all those hyper-tiered receptors? Kay would have mulled over this further, except that she was about to be dick deep in the hottest ladyboy on broadcast if she hopped on now, and—

    There was a request-to-enter sigil pulsing for attention on her tent flap. She reigned in her connection with a huff. The moaning faded into the background of her inner monologue, receptors cooling back to just her own body’s input. Kay rose, pulling back the tent flap with a mild sneer, annoyed out of sheer principle at the interruption.

    “Well look who it is,” Suli’s smirking face started. Of all people. . .

    “The fuck do you want?” she glared, exaggerating her displeasure to see if it would register with him.

    “Can I come in?” he asked, more like a favor than a subordinate request. Kay gave him an unamused stare-down and then stepped back, impatiently gesturing him inside. In the moment it took her to turn around, he plopped himself down on her sleeping pad, palm in chin and already playing with a twist of fabric. She cocked an eyebrow at this and stood, arms akimbo, scowling.

    “I’m lonely, Captain,” he explained at last.

    “Get the fuck outta here with that shit,” she sneered, sucking her tongue in disdain.

    “No, really, though!” He gazed up at her pleadingly. She stared at him as one might do a strange animal that was trying to convince you to take it in. Some misaligned part of her personality began rising, suggesting she hear him out. Maybe he was lonely. Maybe he was actually going to process some emotions with her. Maybe. . . if she gave him a chance, posse’s morale could improve. She crossed her arms.

    “I thought you might have Rahl in here with you,” he said next, oblivious.

    “Why would he be in here with me?” she asked through a clenched jaw. This fucking kid.

    “I dunno,” Suli shrugged. “I thought he was having a rough time lately and like, needed company or something. I just wanted to see, I guess.”

    “You guess?”

    “Yeah. Like . . . just see.”

    “All right, you saw. Time to go back.”

    “Well, wait,” he jumped. Kay waited for him to continue. He seemed nervous, but Suli was clever enough. He sighed at himself. “I guess I just wanted to see if you were busy.”

    “For what?” she demanded sharply, tired of his dawdling.

    “If you wanted to like, hang out, you know?”

    “Hang out? Like what, chit chat into the night like we’re on a stoop or some shit? Come on, Suli, the fuck is wrong with you? We’re out here on—”

    “No, no, not like that!” he pleaded, trying to buy time. “I don’t know. I just figured you might want some company. A little tenderness, right? Like, I realize you like Braga and Rahl a lot more than me, but I just wanted to see if you wanted to try something again?”

    “Like what?” Kay bit.

    “You know. . . Some physical stuff or something,” he said, eyes imploring.

    “I thought you liked your ‘women’ to have ‘tits’.” Kay dished with a snort, repeating verbatim a line Suli had said to Braga the day before. She watched his gaze drop and his mouth open, searching for something to respond with, until too much time had passed and he only looked up at her with an impish smile. Then,

    “Well so what? I always thought we had a good time.”

    Kay began to shake her head, lips pursing open as her sense of bewilderment organized into realization. She recalled the handful of times they had flirted and messed around, secretly, in the corners of offensively massive, perversely wasteful dome structures, before they had been deployed on their first run together. That was before she figured out he was one of those old fashioned types ignorantly obsessed with the sensations of his own penis and unwilling to accept pleasure elsewhere. A square.

    Slowly, “Do you have a thing for me? Or are you just looking to get off?” She watched his face.

    He gave her a noncommittal shrug, still hopeful for action with the ambiguous motion. When she didn’t respond to his passive aggressive tactics, he realized he had miscalculated the situation. Suddenly, he was being yanked to his feet by his shoulder. She looked mad.

    “You’re wasting my time, Suli. Again.”

    “Hey, I’m sor—Ow! You know I don’t like tha—”

    The tent filled briefly with the harsh sound of a smack. Suli quickly buried his face into his shoulder, but she gave him a hard jerk instead and walked him through the tent flap to the outside. Dead silence and only starlight outside. His vision automatically adjusted and he could see her eyes narrowed to slits, with a mean set in her jaw. She tossed him forward, and next her reconstructed voice was in his head.

    //listen, this isn’t the time for acting like a dickhead. go hop on 7-70’s broadcast if you wanna mess around, and *don’t* come to my tent again when you see it’s off limits. got it???//

    A pout in the darkness. Suli said no more and crept back to his tent. He thought 7-70’s broadcast stream was awful, especially this week’s. They couldn’t just put something normal on. It always had to be some freaky body-switching S&M thing. Hot girls would suddenly grow dicks and then you’d have to go down on them and it was just, like, whatever. You could never just have sex with someone normal. Like, ever.

    Suli was a dying breed living in an immortal body.

    Back in her tent, amidst the wash of virtual sweat and skin, Kay wished for the domes’ collapse.

  • Ghost Town

    Ghost Town

    “I like you.”

    “What?”

    “I like you.”

    “That’s sweet of you to say, Suli. What are you getting at?”

    “Just that.”

    Suli had a sing-song way of saying things that got right on Braga’s nerves sometimes. The malicious adolescent smile. The playful eyes. The laughing. But Suli was a violent, trigger-happy asshole. It used to bug Braga out, but that was only because he was used to the stone cold gangbangers from outside the domes where he was from. Suli was a privileged piece of shit from Inside. A piece of shit that was good at his job, though, and for that Braga was usually grateful. Maybe a person like Suli is a normal guy where he’s from, Braga would fret. Maybe even a popular guy. Suli was full of good looks and charm, and you don’t get to be that way being a loner.

    “Does it bother you?”

    “What.”

    “For me to say that.”

    “No, not really,” Braga shrugged, making a point to keep his attention on the situation ahead.

    “Oh, ‘not really’. . .”

    Braga shot Suli a look, not in the mood to play. “What about me?”

    “Do I like?”

    “Yeah.” Grimace. Why’d he open his mouth.

    “You’re so—quiet. Like a house plant.”

    “Oh yeah?”

    “Yeah. You’re a fuckin’ weirdo, Braga. You never talk unless someone’s talking to you, but you’ll talk to yourself if you’re alone. Probably just like house plants do in the nuked areas.”

    “That so.” Braga glanced down at the crunch underneath his foot for distraction, ignoring the idiotic notion that there are still homes to even house plants in the nuked areas.

    “But you’re cute in you’re own way, you know?,” Suli continued. “That’s what I like about you. Emotive. Determined eyes, strong hands, quick mind. And just a little scary. You always wear your pants kinda tight, too. I’d put it to you.”

    “Come on Suli, we got shit to do here.” And my pants aren’t tight. You just don’t have any ass to fill yours . . .

    “Yeah, I’ll come on,” Suli smirked. The bulkier of the two scowled. More childish innuendo from the asshole.

    “There’s a time and place for that and this isn’t it.”

    “What the fuck are you talking about, Brah, we’re in the Nalji fucking ghost town. Shit is here! If I threw you over that railing right now and tore into your ass who would see it? The vampire bitches sleeping down Main street right now?”

    “Supply bug,” Braga offered, ignoring Suli’s absurd notion of sexual aggression.

    “Oh fuck off, that piece of shit doesn’t care. What a tightass. Now I see why you’re always itching to be close to the captain.”

    “Oh yeah, why’s that?”

    “You’re a masochist. And she doesn’t care what your paranoid ass worries about, you’re thinkin’, so you’re just waiting for her to get tired of Rahl so she’ll take a bite outta you instead.”

    “Hey, have some respect for the captain.”

    “I got loads of it, Brah. That doesn’t mean what I say’s not true.”

    “But it’s not. You’re talking about yourself, anyway.”

    “Shit, I wish.”

    Braga stopped walking and turned to Suli with a curled lip and raised brow. “You haven’t?”

    “Nope.”

    “I thought when you—”

    “Nope. We had to stay up keeping watch all night.” Suli paused for a wistful sigh. “She just ain’t into me anyway. I think I’m too fresh for her. And I dunno. . . I kinda like my women to have tits.”

    Christ, Suli, shut the fuck up, will you?”

    “They’re barely there,” he went on, pausing to make a face. “I mean, they’re cute and all—”

    “But you’d just prefer something bigger, is that right? Well what about a ‘big’ motherfucker like me?”

    “That shit’s different with men, you know that.”

    “No, I don’t. I wouldn’t let you touch me anyway.”

    “What? For a front line cyborg, you sure are a conservative asshole.”

    Braga sighed, shaking his head.

    “That’s not it, Suli. Shit.”

    “Then what?”

    “Well you gotta have respect, you gotta have boundaries out here. Limits, you know.” And besides, you’re too damn ignorant to act right, anyway

    “What? Like we don’t have enough all ready?”

    “Hold on a minute, Suli, damn.”

    Braga stopped walking again, not for any good reason or dramatics. Just that he didn’t care for ghost towns like Nalji, real empty ones. There were no signs of significant activity, according to satellite relay feeds, but he always had to check with his own equipment. Enhanced pupils flickered, dilated, and when it felt right, he unshouldered his pack and set it on the dusty ground. Suli followed suit, and then it was just the two cyborg surveyors standing alone under a dry sun.

    They had a bit of time to spare.

    “I’m saying,” Braga picked up, “the way you go about things, it’s disrespectful. Cutting loose and fuckin’ whoever you feel like works when you’re honest with people. And you aren’t honest.”

    “What is that supposed to mean?”

    “We’re not androids or clones or those goddamn talking chimeras, Suli. We’re human. We still get crazy over our emotions even if we’re aware that the computer up top is telling what chemicals to regulate them. That goofy dumbass Rahl acts like he’s got his shit under lock, right?”

    “Yeah.”

    “But we can all tell he can’t get used to the fuckfriend way Kay treats him.”

    “So what? It’s funny to watch, he’s like a woman for her.”

    Braga gave an aggravated look to the sky.

    “See, this is what I’m talking about with you.”

    “What? What the fuck did I say now—”

    “Listen. What I’m trying to get across to you is that maybe if Rahl expressed himself to the Captain about his desires and expectations, he’d have a better time. I’m saying. It’s an example of how we have to act out here. With boundaries, with communication. I like people, Suli. I like your company and everyone else’s, and I even thought about lying down with one or two of you. But we got hired to handle some serious shit out here, and I’d like avoid the interpersonal strife with people that don’t know how to communicate about their shit.”

    “Well of course,” Suli threw in.

    “You say that but I still don’t think you’re really thinking about it. Anyway, you’re my partner on this run, Sul, I don’t want to worry about dumb stuff.”

    “But— “

    “Listen. My point is that I’m not a conservative asshole.”

    Suli threw back a laugh. “You missed me getting to that one, Brah. Listen to yourself.”

    “Hey, also, like I said before, can you stop calling me ‘Brah’?”

    “Oh. Sorry. Braga.”

    Braga narrowed his eyes at Suli’s tone. “Anyway, I’m just saying, even if we think we have all our thoughts and emotions regulated proper, we’re still gonna be tripped up by them. And that’s where communication and boundaries come in. Yeah, we could fuck or whatever it is you think you’d like, but since you don’t know what you like, I’m not trying to mess with you.”

    “Are you fucking serious, pard? You’re serious. All your relationships must end terribly with that mindset. Talk too much. Who thinks like you anymore? Cyborgs like us are supposed to be bad motherfuckers. Even the full human I was throwing it in before we dispatched knew that score. She liked me a lot and all, but wasn’t crying when I left. It’s about laying your shit out on the table, Braga. No wonder you’re such an uptight, quiet fuck, you’re operating from the old era!”

    “Whatever. I’m sure you did a great job telling her how it was gonna be. Did you ever ask her what she wanted?”

    “What an asshole,” Suli laughed, ignoring the question. “Be true to yourself and true with the else, didn’t you ever hear that before? I can’t believe this shit never came up before, Brah—you need to realize people are past that inner turmoil shit.”

    “You’re not listening,” Braga sighed.

    “You’re not listening to me.”

    “Who cares,” he muttered, looking away. Braga was ready to be over with the conversation.

    “I do.”

    “Sure.”

    Braga shouldered his pack and went through the usual check sequence, making sure everything was operating properly and was exactly where it should be. Suli watched, affecting a curious child’s posture, vying for Braga’s attention unsuccessfully. He just couldn’t leave things alone sometimes.

    Finally: “You know, I like it when you say what you’re thinking.”

    “That’s cute. You and I will never fuck.”

    “Why not? Oh right, you don’t want to get caught up in my ‘shit.’ Maybe I’m 2-hot-4-U,” Suli laughed, gesturing along for emphasis. “Or maybe. . . you’re in love with me already and having me in your big burly arms would be too much.”

    He was doing it again. That pursed smile, that obnoxiously sweet tone of voice. . .

    “No, I don’t enjoy fucking children like you.”

    “Course not, you fuckin’ bucket of bolts.”

    “Yep.”

    “Well I’ll still love you the same, whenever you get curious.”

    “Sure.”

    “And you know, I love you as a partner too, Brah.”

    “I know.”

    Suli shouldered his pack finally, no checks. “Good.”

    Good.

    Braga sunk into himself as they continued on, zoning out on Suli’s new stream of self-centered babble. He entertained the idea of overtaking the skinny asshole, more as a show of power than desire. Cause after all, Suli was, very unfortunately, hot shit. But Suli’s whole game was about power, and Braga just couldn’t get down with that kind of thing.


    PHOTO CREDIT: Brian Ulrich