A 100x100 pixel image of Rock Lee's taped up arm from the anime, Naruto

ODE TO ROCK LEE

IF YOU PRESUME

THAT I DON’T ENGAGE IN CERTAIN ACTIVITIES

WITHOUT EVER FOR A SECOND

CONSIDERING THAT THE REASON MIGHT BE FINANCIAL

THEN I’M LETTING YOU KNOW YOU’RE PULLING SOME LIL UPPER CLASS

BULLSHIT

IF YOU THINK THAT I DON’T LIKE SOMETHING

THAT I DON’T WANT TO DO SOMETHING

THAT I CAN’T

THAT IT MUST BE SOME PERSONAL PREFERENCE

AND IT DIDN’T OCCUR TO YOU THAT

IT’S BECAUSE I CAN’T AFFORD IT

THAT THE THREAT OF MONEY (NEXT TO THE THREAT OF MEN) IS THE REALEST THING IN MY LIFE AND I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO JEOPARDIZE MY ABILITY TO KEEP A ROOF OVER MY HEAD AND FOOD IN MY MOUTH (AFTER HAVING LOST IT ONCE BEFORE)

THAT I CHOOSE NOT TO DO SOMETHING RATHER THAN NOT HAVING THE CHOICE

THEN I’M TELLING YOU

THAT’S SHIT UPPER CLASS PEOPLE LIKE TO DO

DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO GROW UP IN A GREASY APARTMENT?
FOR YOUR MOM TO DROP YOU OFF AT YOUR OLD SICILIAN GREAT GRANDMOM’S WHILE SHE WORKED THE NIGHT SHIFT?
THAT YOUR MOM WAS PROUD TO BUY A ROWHOME WHEN YOU STARTED HIGH SCHOOL BUT THAT IT HAD TAKEN THOSE WHOLE 14 YEARS SINCE YOU BEEN BORN TO GET DECENT ENOUGH CREDIT AFTER HAVING BEEN PREYED ON BY BANKS AT A YOUNG AGE?
DO YOU REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME YOU REALIZED THAT YOU HAD MADE FRIENDS WHO WERE ENDOWED WITH IMPORTANT FINANCIAL ADVICE BY FAMILY, AND HAD WEALTH TO FALL BACK ON,
AND NOT A SINGLE PERSON IN ALL YOUR MANY-BRANCHED MEXICAN, ITALIAN, IRISH, BLACK AMERICAN FAMILY HAD BEEN TOLD THOSE THINGS
AND EVERYONE WAS STILL WORKING IN THEIR OLD AGE
AND NOBODY HAS TIME TO ASK YOU HOW YOU’RE DOING BECAUSE THEY
JUST WANT YOU TO EAT THE DAMN MEATLOAF ALREADY SO YOU CAN GET YOUR HOMEWORK STARTED, CAUSE YOU’RE SMART
AND MAYBE THAT’LL GET YOU SOMEWHERE IN LIFE IF YOU DO GOOD IN SCHOOL,
IF A MAN DOESN’T RUIN YOUR LIFE FIRST,
AND YOU MANAGE TO NOT FUCK UP YOUR NONEXISTENT CREDIT.

A GENIUS OF HARD WORK.

YOU FIND THINGS OUT THE HARD WAY CAUSE YOU NEVER KNEW HOW THE PRIVILEGED MANAGED
TO GET ALL THAT WEALTH, LIVE COMFORTABLY,
GO CLOTHES SHOPPING FOR FUN (NOT FOR THE DISCOUNT OUTFITS IN ANTICIPATION OF BACK TO SCHOOL),
TAKE FAMILY VACATIONS ANYWHERE OTHER THAN THE SHORE,
PUT ALL THEIR KIDS THROUGH SCHOOL, WITH GRANDPARENTS THAT BEEN SAVING FOR IT THE WHOLE TIME, AND

HERE YOU ARE

HAVING CLAWED YOURSELF INTO A WORLD OF THE EDUCATED, THE RADICALIZED, THE TENDER HEARTED, THE WELL TRAVELED,
AND IN ALL OF THAT YOU CAN COUNT

ON YOUR HAND

THE PEOPLE YOU’VE SINCE MET WHO EVEN REMOTELY KNOW WHERE YOU COME FROM,
SINCE NONE OF THE MAJORITY EVER TALK ABOUT THE FINANCIAL SETTINGS OF THEIR TORTURED YOUTH

SO YOU SMILE AND NOD WHEN THE REST OF YOUR EDUCATED RADICAL SWEET NEIGHBORS TALK ABOUT SOMEBODY’S MOM’S HOUSE WITH A POOL AND GOING TO BEAUTIFUL NATURAL PARKS AND WHO WENT TO THIS COLLEGE YOU SHOULD APPARENTLY KNOW THE REPUTATION OF AND TRAVELING THE GLOBE AND BUYING A HOUSE AND ALL THE THERAPY SESSIONS AND HAVING BABIES AND ANIMALS
AND NEVER EVER
EVER WORRYING
ABOUT HOW THEY GONNA PAY RENT

AND NEVER EVER UNDERSTANDING THAT EVEN THOUGH YOU CAN WORK HARD TO AFFORD ALL THOSE THINGS, THE UPPER CLASS STIGMAS THEY ALL CARRY SATURATE YOUR BLOOD, AND THAT

YOU CAN HEAR

THE VOICES OF YOUR AUNTS AND UNCLES MAKING JOKES ABOUT THEIR UPPER CLASS WINO COWORKERS TALKING ABOUT THEIR THERAPIST AND THEIR NEW HOUSE AND OTHER BULLSHIT THAT THEY JUST COULD NEVER EVER AFFORD BECAUSE THE PAYCHECK HAS TO GO TO BILLS AND INSURANCE AND CIGARETTES AND GOD WILLING THAT ALIMONY CHECK COMES IN TOO. AND IT ISN’T ABOUT MONEY. IT’S ABOUT DOMINATION. AND ACCESS. AND WORTH.

AND WHAT IS A WORKING CLASS PERSON’S WORTH IN
THE FANTASY WHERE
THEY STOP WORKING?


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